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Sunday, February 24, 2008

"you live in this world not for yourself, but for the others that care for you."

after seeing this quote somewhere, it really sets me thinking.

sometimes in my life, i have been thinking of quitting.

it's just those times when you think you can't hang on but in fact you can.

you just lack the faith and determination to hang on to something you hold dear.

even in my life now, i have been thinking,

thinking whether i made the right choice to join IP and the hwa chong family.

will i be better off going to an ordinary school and end up in poly now?

will i have been not so stressed up if i had not been doing relatively well for my studies?

sometimes,

an ordinary and simple life that people shuns away from may be the last thing i want to give up

everything in my life till now is seriously smooth,

so smooth that i just can't believe i have made it to hwachong.

i have seen how people work their lungs out to get 6 points, do whatever they can to get to HC

but i have just got into hwachong without even shedding lots of sweat like people do

like what my parents say,

one may choose a smooth sailing route,

but if they met with trouble, they will have no means to deal with it.

those who choose to take a rocky route,

though it's troublesome, there are bound to be honey for you at the end

now in hwachong, life seriously sucks

seeing people start mugging and working so hard

i feel super slack and worthless

but i seriously just cannot find my mood to do so

but deep in my heart,

i know i will do my best so as to not disappoint those who pin high hopes on me

but can i?

in life, we face several choices that we have to make

but the choices we made just can't seems to satisfy everyone and make them happy

the concept we learnt during econs seriously works a lot..

opportunity cost just works for every parts of our life

i have been thinking of what cca should i choose all the while

should i join CO or what?
can i find time for MCO? i just missed those times we had together enjoying music

how i wish that there's another genting competition

i seriously and thoroughly enjoyed myself then

but if i were to go mco, i will have to space out my saturday morning

the time which i can actually use as my study time

to improve on my studies which i'm seriously lagging behind

i just seems to can't understand what my lecturers are talking about

i will just dose off during such lectures

should i go for tuition or go MCO?

I HATE making choices

they just seems to be bugging me

i seriously should try to improve myself

to be more decisive

sometimes i just wish that there a universal solution

something that i can just rely to clear all my questions

someone whom i can trust to tell all my feelings to

but is there any? maybe i can only find them in my dream

who knows?

gerald started scribbling things at 12:43 AM

Saturday, February 23, 2008

well, today was a half annoying and half high day for me..

ok the annoying part!
I'm seriously really pissed off by my physics teacher. he seriously cannot teach. can u imagine having a teacher who used one and half hours to go through 3 questions? he have not been teaching us anything and I or most of the class have not learnt any single thing from him.. and i'm serious. NOT ANY SINGLE thing!! even when goin through some questions he only threw us some equation like v=u+at and some other kinematics equation. but whats the point of doing so without teaching us to manipulate them? and when we asked him for answers, i nearly exploded when i heard his reply. here's the conversation.

student: mr ong, may we have the answer for the kinematics tutorial?
teacher: urm sorry, i don't have the answer.
student: so mr ong, how do we know whether we are wrong for the tutorial?
teacher: urm actually i don't care whether you got the answer wrong or not, I only care whether you know where you went wrong and how you can correct yourself.
student: urm.... Okayy.... *stunned face*

see. having such a teacher really rock man. i am seriously pissed by him. if i have the power to send in an appeal and request for a change of teacher, i seriously will. but on second thought, if we were to send in an appeal, he will likely loses his job. However to think of it again, if we were to be kind to him, won't we be cruel to ourselves? Do we seriously want to fail our A lvl?

Now it's the FUN and HIGH part!
today was drama fest! as i did not buy any ticket, i have no choice but to watch live telecast in LT2. Min Xuan, Ling Yong, Clement, JiaHan, Chai, Fong all went to LT2 with me! though the other quarter of the class bought tickets and went for the 'live' show. The sound system was seriously bad and i can't hear a single thing at 1st as a lot of people was cheering for their respective faculty. I slept for the 1st play as it was seriously quite sian. It was Athena play for god sake! Then the 2nd play was Artemis! Sinned! the coolest play ever. I'm quite proud to announce that i did not sleep and the play was really nice. then next up was ares and apollo play. i was half asleep then. Apollo play was about love and something really cheem. Then next up was the results. OK before i go into the results, i shall post about all the funny things i saw at dramafest ytd.

1st: the MCs was really hilarious. the jokes they tell was super funny
2nd: the impromtu glowing stickman was like real stupid.. retard doing lame stuffs on stage. still claim that the light and sound crew went on strike. i really laughed till stomach pain see-ing those 5 stupid stickman on stage.

now the results.. *drumroll*
artemis won the best director and best ensemble award!
though we didn't won the best play but deep inside our heart we knew that the production crew did their best and have won. Our play was seriously super duper nice! and emo though..

ok. think thats all for today. i still have to go study for my chemistry test on monday.. stupid timing to have a chemistry test on our ORIENTATION 2 day! Yeah! we can have one more day of fun before mugging starts!

gerald started scribbling things at 1:33 AM

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

well basically this is my 1st post so i shalln't post such a long one.. this week urm was quite normal though wed are always the most boring one.. todae juz pe lesson and we played badminton! haha badminton is forever so fun.. i realise i have de-prove a lot for my badminton.*sobs* but actually i tink its no big deal so i shouldn't make such a big fuss over it. then halfwae i have to do my pull up trial test. i sucks at pull up so when i managed to do one i was so so extremely happy! then zijie helped me with 5 pull ups. and i ended up with muscle ache on my arms.. then physics lecture and lab. i ended up reading chai's(kimchi if she wants it) asian geographic for most of the time. thats about it for todae.

then i went home.. on the wae back lots of thoughts rush through my mind. there seems to be a distance with me and my class. dunno why but i juz felt this way. sometimes i tink it's impossible for me to be able to form a bond with your class in such a short period of time.. i duno why.. if im not that close to someone or a group of people, i will just dao them and do my own things.. but to think of it, i seriously should try to improve on this.. if not i will end up with no friends.. but if i seriously don't like someone can't i have my freedom to express my dislike of him or her? do i have to be such a faker and bring myself to all smiles and entertain them when i just forcing myself to do so? won't i appear to be such an idiot?

then i thought of my studies, should i start mugging now or should i just slack and allow myself to relax more? If i don't start now, when should I?

sometimes i just wish i'm not born into this world. then i would not have to face all these stress and problems. some questions that i often ask myself are what's our purpose to be born into this world? Why do we have to be born? What's our ultimate aim to living? Are we just beings who just sleep, wake up, eat, study, work then die eventually? Are we just born to grow up and raise up the next generation? Why do we have to follow the cycle of live? study to work to retirement then wait for death? sometimes they are just so complicated when things can be really simple?

gerald started scribbling things at 7:42 AM