well basically this is my 1st post so i shalln't post such a long one.. this week urm was quite normal though wed are always the most boring one.. todae juz pe lesson and we played badminton! haha badminton is forever so fun.. i realise i have de-prove a lot for my badminton.*sobs* but actually i tink its no big deal so i shouldn't make such a big fuss over it. then halfwae i have to do my pull up trial test. i sucks at pull up so when i managed to do one i was so so extremely happy! then zijie helped me with 5 pull ups. and i ended up with muscle ache on my arms.. then physics lecture and lab. i ended up reading chai's(kimchi if she wants it) asian geographic for most of the time. thats about it for todae.
then i went home.. on the wae back lots of thoughts rush through my mind. there seems to be a distance with me and my class. dunno why but i juz felt this way. sometimes i tink it's impossible for me to be able to form a bond with your class in such a short period of time.. i duno why.. if im not that close to someone or a group of people, i will just dao them and do my own things.. but to think of it, i seriously should try to improve on this.. if not i will end up with no friends.. but if i seriously don't like someone can't i have my freedom to express my dislike of him or her? do i have to be such a faker and bring myself to all smiles and entertain them when i just forcing myself to do so? won't i appear to be such an idiot?
then i thought of my studies, should i start mugging now or should i just slack and allow myself to relax more? If i don't start now, when should I?
sometimes i just wish i'm not born into this world. then i would not have to face all these stress and problems. some questions that i often ask myself are what's our purpose to be born into this world? Why do we have to be born? What's our ultimate aim to living? Are we just beings who just sleep, wake up, eat, study, work then die eventually? Are we just born to grow up and raise up the next generation? Why do we have to follow the cycle of live? study to work to retirement then wait for death? sometimes they are just so complicated when things can be really simple?
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