"you live in this world not for yourself, but for the others that care for you."after seeing this quote somewhere, it really sets me thinking. sometimes in my life, i have been thinking of quitting.it's just those times when you think you can't hang on but in fact you can.you just lack the faith and determination to hang on to something you hold dear. even in my life now, i have been thinking, thinking whether i made the right choice to join IP and the hwa chong family.will i be better off going to an ordinary school and end up in poly now?will i have been not so stressed up if i had not been doing relatively well for my studies?sometimes, an ordinary and simple life that people shuns away from may be the last thing i want to give up everything in my life till now is seriously smooth,so smooth that i just can't believe i have made it to hwachong.i have seen how people work their lungs out to get 6 points, do whatever they can to get to HCbut i have just got into hwachong without even shedding lots of sweat like people dolike what my parents say,one may choose a smooth sailing route,but if they met with trouble, they will have no means to deal with it.those who choose to take a rocky route,though it's troublesome, there are bound to be honey for you at the end now in hwachong, life seriously sucksseeing people start mugging and working so hardi feel super slack and worthlessbut i seriously just cannot find my mood to do sobut deep in my heart, i know i will do my best so as to not disappoint those who pin high hopes on mebut can i? in life, we face several choices that we have to makebut the choices we made just can't seems to satisfy everyone and make them happythe concept we learnt during econs seriously works a lot..opportunity cost just works for every parts of our life i have been thinking of what cca should i choose all the whileshould i join CO or what?
can i find time for MCO? i just missed those times we had together enjoying musichow i wish that there's another genting competitioni seriously and thoroughly enjoyed myself thenbut if i were to go mco, i will have to space out my saturday morningthe time which i can actually use as my study timeto improve on my studies which i'm seriously lagging behindi just seems to can't understand what my lecturers are talking abouti will just dose off during such lecturesshould i go for tuition or go MCO? I HATE making choicesthey just seems to be bugging mei seriously should try to improve myselfto be more decisive sometimes i just wish that there a universal solutionsomething that i can just rely to clear all my questionssomeone whom i can trust to tell all my feelings tobut is there any? maybe i can only find them in my dreamwho knows?
gerald started scribbling things at 12:43 AM